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This is the first journal I've posted here and I'm doing it here because no body from my "real" life knows about my account here.  It's easy enough to find but thus far no body has and I'm glad.
This is more of a vent to my so called boyfriend.  You may not want to read it.  It's just something I had to get off my chest.  I'm so sick of my life.
I had a bad night last night.  First my stupid gall stones acted up.  I was vomiting and in massive pain for an hour.

Then I was trying to talk to Mike about if he think children are born with personalities or not.  He thinks they are born with nothing.  I think that he's wrong but I didn't get a chance to voice my opinion because as I started talking I mis-spoke and he said "Why don't we talk about your education instead".  He was being a rude asshole and I'm sooooooooooo sick of it.  He knows that I didn't have the education he did.  From the time I was in third grade and up I missed a lot of days of school because I had to take care of my mother's kids so they could go out and party.  Either that or I was covered in fucking bruises and she wouldn't let me go to school.  One year I went to ten, yes TEN, different schools.  So fuck you very much Mike, sure I'm not as smart as you think you are.  Nobody possibly could be.  You think you are so fucking high and mighty.  I'm sorry I spent my childhood being torn apart from every possible angle by every possible person while you had it so tough because your mom punished you when you did something wrong.  I'm so sorry for that you peice of shit.  God, who the hell do you think you are anyhow? You make me sick.  Your whole life is a lie and now you have me tangled in it.  You lie to me, you lie to Tyler, you lie to your family.  I hate you.  I am going to break free of your hold one day soon and you will be so stuck that you will have to go live with your Mommy again.  But guess what??? THIS TIME YOUR MOMMY KNOWS WHAT YOU DID.  When you divorced your wife your family only knew your side of it.  Well, guess what I told your mother everything.  She asked me so I told her the truth.  You are a liar, you ignore me.  If I don't talk to you then you never whisper a fucking word.  Your mom told me to move in with her.  That's how wrong you fucking are.  I hate your attitude about me.  How can you treat me like that? How can I be sitting less than ten feet from you crying over something stupid you said to me and you don't even know?!? How do you do that? How can you just sit and stare at the TV day in and day out? If it's not the tv it's the damn computer.  What is your problem? Actually, I don't care what your problem is.  I'm sick of it and of you.  I'll be gone before you know it.
Hell, I already had an apartment all set up and you never knew.  I didn't take it because I didn't want to move out of state.  Unfortantly finding a house in Southern Cal is too much for me.  I can't afford it but I have people trying to help me with that.  You don't even know that either!  It's like we live two different lives in one very tiny house and you know NOTHING about me.  How is that possible?  You suck rocks.  I swear to God, I'm out of here as soon as possible.


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